While today may be the real test to see if Baby will be able to focus while taking her medication; its also a test of my strength. It was hard enough to bite my tongue while she took her medication yesterday, when I was around her all day. Today, I have to go about my day knowing that Baby is out there. On her medication. Without her mama.
Don’t get me wrong, I trust her school completely. I do not think that I would have been able to find the strength to get this far without the support that the entire staff provides me. But knowing that doesn’t make this choice any easier on me. It takes all my strength not to pop into the school during recess, just to see if Baby is as happy as when I left her. Or to text the principal to see if there have been any issues. She has a whole school to run, after all. I cannot expect her to make my daughter, one child out of 500, her #1 priority.
I guess I am stuck waiting. Just a few more hours until I can go pick up Baby, and Kid, and see if this is the great start to a wonderful week that I so desperately need. Or if I will spend the rest of this week just waiting for the other shoe to drop.